Saturday, October 31, 2015

Life (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 31)

Life is a journey
Take it one day at a time
I hate cliches 
But I guess it's true
We can't control everything
And the things we can
We have to learn to let go sometime
Most of life is luck
Very little is hard work
Being at the right place at the right time
Making the right decision
Even though you had no idea it was the "right" one
We punish for things we didn't cause
And celebrate things we don't deserve
But that's life
And it's all we have
Until we're done here
Life is a journey
Enjoy it
Live it
Take it
Cry it
Love it

Friday, October 30, 2015

Senses (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 30)

I can still feel you near
But I can't touch you
What such despair!

I can't see you anymore
And the tears blur my vision
Can't figure out what all this is for

I remember your smell
But now your scent is gone
And there's nothing left to tell

I can still hear your voice
It's in my head all the time
But I'm forced to do without it, I don't have a choice

I have the bitter taste of regret
Just sitting there on my tongue
But there's no going back, time is already set...

For The Better (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 29)

Nothing's the same
And I always fear change
When I'm not sure if it's for the better

I like routine
And you don't get what that means
So, I'm not sure it's for the better

Some things you want to end
While others you want to mend
God, I hope it's for the better

Maybe I'll like it
Or accept what I get
We'll see if it's for the better

My Favorite Poem (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 28)

Don't think I have a favorite poem
Because none of them can mirror me
I have to write my own
It's the only way I can get clean
For no one else understands it
No one else can ever write who I am
Nothing else can ever fit

So my favorite poem is whatever I come up with
It changes whenever I write something new
But I must say I still favor Blame It On The Moon

Blame It On The Moon was written by me last year for OctPoWriMo.

My Happy Ending (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 27)

I'm the boss
I have everything I've ever wanted
Most importantly, everything I need
It's not much to ask for
It's rather simple
That's my happy ending...

Monday, October 26, 2015

Simple? (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 26)

Was there a time when things were simple?
Or did I imagine it?
Simple was never part of the process
It's always harder than we remember
Process it in our minds to be something it's not
Remember that thing you thought was easy?
Not so simple when you try again
Easy doesn't exist

We just get over it
And when it's over, we forget...

The Best Mistake (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 25)

I was addicted to sadness
It was my favorite mistake
I embraced my inner madness
And it opened the gates

Locking myself alone
Was my favorite childhood pastime
Practicing a bitter tone
Developing anger I could call mine

And I may have been 5 years old
But I knew what I was doing
Sadness was the only thing I could hold
Something new inside was brewing

But it made me who I am
So, what are you going to do?
It opened up a flooded dam
My favorite mistake was missing you

The Best Corner (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 24)

I'll find the best corner at the party and live it up
Blue lights blinking on and off
I'll sit until you notice me
Won't leave until you notice me...

I'll look on and wish that I could be so free
I watch you laugh
But you don't notice me
Won't leave until you notice me

I'll talk to you and share some jokes
While the loud music plays
You finally noticed me
Won't leave until you notice me

 I'll make my way out the door
Simply because I know
Even though we spoke, you didn't notice me
You'll never notice me... 

Party With Dj's And Young People

Friday, October 23, 2015

Character Profile From Turn It Off: Riley Johnson

I missed last week but here's a new character profile. As promised, I'm taking a break from the girls and introducing one of Peyton's boxing friends. He's actually in A Tragic Heart as well but Turn It Off shows how they met in the first place. Let's take a look at Riley! For the previous character profile, click here:


Full Name: Riley Tristan Johnson

Birth Date: September 7, 1992

Gender: Male

Age During Turn It Off: 16-17 years old

Eye Color: Hazel

Hair Color: Black/Dark Brown

Height: 6'0

Weight: 190 lbs

Relatives: Anne Johnson (Mother), Martin Johnson (Father), Chloe Johnson (Sister), Cameron Johnson (Brother)

Interests/Hobbies: Boxing, Football, Basketball, Almost any sport, Hanging at his family owned Pub with friends

Positive Character Traits: He's a very approachable person and a loyal friend. He loves to have a good time and will never turn down a night of fun. Riley is reliable and a great boxer.

Negative Character Traits: Fun can be his downfall.

Choice Quote From Turn It Off: "A rough neck, I see. Your kind is the best. You guys always think you know all there is to know about fighting but once you get in the ring with someone who’s your match…well, it can be a whole different story.”
 That's all for this week! I'll see you in another week with a new character profile.
 By the way, if Riley was a song he'd be "Wouldn't You Like To Ride" by Kanye West


Science? (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 23)

Everything great starts with a fall
Just like everything big starts with something small
We're all just pieces of atoms
Stardust combined
And out comes this person, destined for something big
It's inside of us all, we just have to dig

We're all alive because of a cell
We all have futures no one can tell
Something hidden on the inside
Unfathomable things
We're nothing but gathered elements
Struggling to make the best of our presence

Lies and Truth (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 22)

I'm a rebel at heart
I'm a timid soul
I love a good crowd
I love to be alone

Two lies and a truth
More like 3 truths and a lie
Which one is it?
Go ahead, take your time.

Over/Under Whelmed (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 21)

Over or under
There's no in between
I'm overwhelmed 
With my passions and dreams
My mind won't stop racing
The time moves too fast
My body won't stop pacing
How long will it last?

I'm underwhelmed by life
There's not much to it
It bores me by the night
So I just think and sit
Of new ways to make it happen
Don't know where I'm going
I can hear my brain laughing
Not sure what I'm sowing

Thursday, October 22, 2015

For Specs Alexander...(To The Moon & Back)(OctPoWriMo2015-Day 20)

You may be older and don't run around like you used to
But I still love you to the moon and back
You may be bad and tear up things that's new
But I love you to the moon and back
And nothing will ever change that

You may not be feeling well these days
And we're not sure what exactly is wrong
But I'm sure you'll be okay
Because you've always been strong
I'll love you to the moon and back

You may only be 13 pounds but you're so much bigger to me
I'll love you to the moon and back
I promise I won't ever leave

Even when your time is limited, that day will come
But none of that will change a thing
Because the moon isn't far enough
Neither is the sun

So I'm rooting for you my Poodle Love
I mean it, you're the best dog in the world
Because no one comes close
Not a boy or any girl

You're the only one who can make my heart skip a beat
And I'm trying to keep this poem short, nice and sweet
But I don't think no one understands
Or gets it just like that
No matter what happens, I'll love you to the moon and back

And far beyond...


Dear One (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 19)

Dear old friends, you sort of took who I was
Dear the ones who had so much to say, my confidence shattered
Dear anyone who would listen, I'm slowly getting it back
Dear the ones who helped, it's all appreciated
Dear who I am, it's all up to you

Monday, October 19, 2015

Get To Know Me (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 18)

I'm perfectly fine
Quiet and divine 
I smirk and I smile
But I'm deeper than the Nile 

I've always been a mystery
No one really knows my history
But they all love to assume
So, I dance to my own tune

Inside I'm a bad one
The one who enjoys fun
Don't think because I'm a perfect lady
I don't have a side to me that's a bit shady

I'm not saying I'm not trustworthy 
Evil or dirty
I'm just saying you don't know me
So don't judge me, please

I'm better than you imagine
So raw, my thoughts can be quite savage
But I swear I'm still a good guy
Get to know me...just try!

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Dancing With Tears (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 17)

1, 2, 3
1, 2, 3
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes
4, 5, 6
The water is giving me blurry sight

7, 8, 9
They fall onto my face
10, 11, 12
10, 11, 12
Partner, please give me some space

13, 14, 15
13, 14, 15
I don't think the count goes this high
16, 17, 18
16, 17, 18
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

I'm twirling while I'm crying
I spin so fast they can't tell
My body moves so flawlessly
They don't know inside I'm in hell

So keep it going
1, 2, 3, 1
Let the movement keep flowing
2, 3, 4, 2
So they won't know I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

Shipwreck (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 16)

Do you see the shipwreck over there?
Do you see the shipwreck over there?
Everyone's staring
Everyone's staring
They won't help
But they won't cover their eyes either

Maybe someone should see the damage
Maybe someone should see the damage
But no one's moving
But no one's moving
Maybe because they can't provide the bandage
Maybe because they think it's hopeless

There's smiles on some faces
There's smiles on some faces
The rest of their expressions are blank
The rest of their expressions are blank
The crowd fills the empty spaces
Yet no one moves

Now the shipwreck is sinking
And not one person is blinking
It's going down
But it's not making a sound
And everyone pretends they didn't see
They all pretend the shipwreck isn't me

Today's prompt was a paradelle poem.

In My Wildest Dreams (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 15)

I'd get away from here
I'd go far away
I'd never look back
In my wildest dreams

I'd get a one way ticket
Stay away from here
Remain unapologetic
In my wildest dreams

I'd co-exist with myself
I'd do whatever I please
I'd be my own best friend
In my wildest dreams

I'd be okay with being alone
My heart would hold no fear
I wouldn't need any of you
In my wildest dreams

The world's the limit
Maybe even time and space
Nothing would stop me
In my wildest dreams

I'm fearless
I'm brave
I'm unforgettable 
In my wildest dreams

Friday, October 16, 2015

Yesterday or Tomorrow (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 14)

Stuck in the middle
Not sure where to go
Life can be fickle 
Not sure what to know

Because truth is always blurred
It's never black and white
My words are kind of slurred
I'm stuck in the middle tonight

Drunk in the middle of a bridge
That connects yesterday and tomorrow
I missed it by a smidge
But I don't want to go back to sorrow

So if I'm in between
Yesterday and tomorrow
Is today unseen? 
Some logic I could borrow

Because I'm not sure where I stand
Or what all of this means
It's like my feet are caught in quick sand
The distance is equal, or so it seems

Yesterday or tomorrow? 

Risky Business (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 13)

I'm sure I'd never write something I don't mean
Or walk with a world I refuse to dream 
Because everything I say means something
Although some emotions are just a fling

Whenever I type a word I risk something that matters
But if I say nothing at all that will be sadder 
So sorry if I offend you or make you upset
But you shouldn't make me mad because you don't know what you'll get

I'm a writer, artist, and a poet
Don't act surprised, like you didn't know it
Because everything to me is fair game
No one's above the're all the same

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Welcome To Adulthood (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 12)

Am I crazy for thinking there's more?
Because I feel like this can't be all
Could I find it if I knew what to look for?
Don't say there's nothing behind this wall

Everything contains something deeper
Fear would love to prove that theory wrong
Going the other route because it's cheaper
Hoping what I need won't pass me along

Impossible things happen all the time
"Just believe," they all say
Kinder things have happened to evil souls
Let's not talk about that today

My mind is a wandering battle
Never ending at any point
Over bearing and keeps me rattled
Promising my dreams and fears are joint

Quiet moments do me no good
Rationalization is my worst enemy
Sometimes I don't think as I should
Trying to find a permanent remedy

Understanding is the hardest
Volunteering my sanity
Wishing on stardust
Xanax helps my inhumanity 

Yelling my loudest won't do me any good
Zookeepers stand by to lock up this animal inside 

The prompt today was to create a poem with 26 lines using different letters of the alphabet. I decided to go in alphabetical order.

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Surprise Me! (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 11)

I look in the mirror
"Surprise me," you say
But I don't know if I can
It never worked out this way

"Just give it a shot"
"Go ahead and try it"
Got to learn to take risks
Because you never know what you'll get

But I'm glad I listened
And put myself out there
Because sometimes you're right
And there's nothing to fear

Untamed Heart (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 10)

Ink me good
Or bad if you choose
I have an untamed heart
That will never lose

Don't go by guidelines
I don't believe in rules
I'm an untamed heart
I see from a different view

Don't want what you want
Don't care what you say
My heart is untamed
It'll always be this way

You tell me to grow up
But rebellion isn't a phase
My heart's not tamed
I was born a renegade

This is who I am
It's in my blood
My heart can't be tamed
That's how it always was 

Friday, October 9, 2015

Character Profile From Turn It Off: Jenna Hudson

Starting next week I'll take a break from the girls in Turn It Off but this week I want to introduce you to a sort of important girl from the book. She appears in the last book of the series as well. Her name is Jenna Hudson and she's a girl Peyton done wrong...I mean just plain old wrong! Later on he grows up and realizes/takes responsibility for his actions regarding Jenna but it doesn't change what he did to her. She's a sweet girl who has great innocence about her. In the book, Peyton stated, "Jenna was always a sweet girl. I didn’t have one bad memory of her. She was always so compassionate and caring which is why she didn’t deserve what I was planning to do but I wanted revenge. Her dad was the officer that arrested me and pinned all of those charges against me when he could have just taken me home and given me a warning." Here's Jenna!

Check out the previous character profile here:

Full Name: Jenna Marilyn Hudson

Birth Date: November 9, 1992

Gender: Female

Age During Turn It Off: 16 years old

Eye Color: Brown

Hair Color: Brown

Height: 5'4

Weight: 125 lbs

Relatives:  Peter Hudson (Father), Emily Hudson (Mother)

Relationship Status: Single

Interests/Hobbies: Hanging out with friends while having clean fun, Reading, Anything that makes her laugh

Positive Character Traits: Jenna is a straight up good girl! She does everything she's supposed to do and is still innocent in so many ways. She's a complete optimist and doesn't stay down for too long. She's also a great friend and company.

Negative Character Traits: She can be naive at times because she's so optimistic and innocent. That's how Peyton got to her.

Choice Quote From Turn It Off: "I’m usually the designated one out of my friends."

I'll be back next week with a new character profile!

BTW, if Jenna was a song she'd be "American Girl" (the Taylor Swift cover).