Split Your Heart, Not Your Tongue

Life is a journey Take it one day at a time I hate cliches  But I guess it's true We can't control everything And the things we can We have to learn to let go sometime Most of life is luck Very little is hard work Being at the right place at the right time Making the right decision Even though you had no idea it was the "right" one We punish for things we didn't cause And celebrate things we don't deserve But that's life And it's all we have Until we're done here Life is a journey Enjoy it Live it Take it Cry it Love it

I can still feel you near But I can't touch you What such despair! I can't see you anymore And the tears blur my vision Can't figure out what all this is for I remember your smell But now your scent is gone And there's nothing left to tell I can still hear your voice It's in my head all the time But I'm forced to do without it, I don't have a choice I have the bitter taste of regret Just sitting there on my tongue But there's no going back, time is already set...

Nothing's the same And I always fear change When I'm not sure if it's for the better I like routine And you don't get what that means So, I'm not sure it's for the better Some things you want to end While others you want to mend God, I hope it's for the better Maybe I'll like it Or accept what I get We'll see if it's for the better

Don't think I have a favorite poem Because none of them can mirror me I have to write my own It's the only way I can get clean For no one else understands it No one else can ever write who I am Nothing else can ever fit So my favorite poem is whatever I come up with It changes whenever I write something new But I must say I still favor Blame It On The Moon Blame It On The Moon was written by me last year for OctPoWriMo.

I'm the boss I have everything I've ever wanted Most importantly, everything I need It's not much to ask for It's rather simple That's my happy ending...

Was there a time when things were simple? Or did I imagine it? Simple was never part of the process It's always harder than we remember Process it in our minds to be something it's not Remember that thing you thought was easy? Not so simple when you try again Easy doesn't exist We just get over it And when it's over, we forget...

I was addicted to sadness It was my favorite mistake I embraced my inner madness And it opened the gates Locking myself alone Was my favorite childhood pastime Practicing a bitter tone Developing anger I could call mine And I may have been 5 years old But I knew what I was doing Sadness was the only thing I could hold Something new inside was brewing But it made me who I am So, what are you going to do? It opened up a flooded dam My favorite mistake was missing you  

I'll find the best corner at the party and live it up Blue lights blinking on and off I'll sit until you notice me Won't leave until you notice me... I'll look on and wish that I could be so free I watch you laugh But you don't notice me Won't leave until you notice me I'll talk to you and share some jokes While the loud music plays You finally noticed me Won't leave until you notice me  I'll make my way out the door Simply because I know Even though we spoke, you didn't notice me You'll never notice me... 

I missed last week but here's a new character profile. As promised, I'm taking a break from the girls and introducing one of Peyton's boxing friends. He's actually in A Tragic Heart as well but Turn It Off shows how they met in the first place. Let's take a look at Riley! For the previous character profile, click here: http://sellecameron.blogspot.com/2015/10/character-profile-from-turn-it-off_9.html       Full Name: Riley Tristan Johnson Birth Date: September 7, 1992 Gender: Male Age During Turn It Off: 16-17 years old Eye Color: Hazel Hair Color: Black/Dark Brown Height: 6'0 Weight: 190 lbs Relatives: Anne Johnson (Mother), Martin Johnson (Father), Chloe Johnson (Sister), Cameron Johnson (Brother) Interests/Hobbies: Boxing, Football, Basketball, Almost any sport, Hanging at his family owned Pub with friends Positive Character Traits: He's a very approachable person and a loyal friend. He loves to

Everything great starts with a fall Just like everything big starts with something small We're all just pieces of atoms Stardust combined And out comes this person, destined for something big It's inside of us all, we just have to dig We're all alive because of a cell We all have futures no one can tell Something hidden on the inside Unfathomable things We're nothing but gathered elements Struggling to make the best of our presence

I'm a rebel at heart I'm a timid soul I love a good crowd I love to be alone Two lies and a truth More like 3 truths and a lie Which one is it? Go ahead, take your time.

Over or under There's no in between I'm overwhelmed  With my passions and dreams My mind won't stop racing The time moves too fast My body won't stop pacing How long will it last? I'm underwhelmed by life There's not much to it It bores me by the night So I just think and sit Of new ways to make it happen Don't know where I'm going I can hear my brain laughing Not sure what I'm sowing

You may be older and don't run around like you used to But I still love you to the moon and back You may be bad and tear up things that's new But I love you to the moon and back And nothing will ever change that You may not be feeling well these days And we're not sure what exactly is wrong But I'm sure you'll be okay Because you've always been strong I'll love you to the moon and back You may only be 13 pounds but you're so much bigger to me I'll love you to the moon and back I promise I won't ever leave Even when your time is limited, that day will come But none of that will change a thing Because the moon isn't far enough Neither is the sun So I'm rooting for you my Poodle Love I mean it, you're the best dog in the world Because no one comes close Not a boy or any girl You're the only one who can make my heart skip a beat And I'm trying to keep this poem short, nice and

Dear old friends, you sort of took who I was Sigh... Dear the ones who had so much to say, my confidence shattered Thanks Dear anyone who would listen, I'm slowly getting it back Watch Dear the ones who helped, it's all appreciated Truth Dear who I am, it's all up to you Go  

I'm perfectly fine Quiet and divine  I smirk and I smile But I'm deeper than the Nile  I've always been a mystery No one really knows my history But they all love to assume So, I dance to my own tune Inside I'm a bad one The one who enjoys fun Don't think because I'm a perfect lady I don't have a side to me that's a bit shady I'm not saying I'm not trustworthy  Evil or dirty I'm just saying you don't know me So don't judge me, please I'm better than you imagine So raw, my thoughts can be quite savage But I swear I'm still a good guy Get to know me...just try!

1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 I'm dancing with tears in my eyes 4, 5, 6 4,5,6 The water is giving me blurry sight 7,8,9 7, 8, 9 They fall onto my face 10, 11, 12 10, 11, 12 Partner, please give me some space 13, 14, 15 13, 14, 15 I don't think the count goes this high 16, 17, 18 16, 17, 18 I'm dancing with tears in my eyes I'm twirling while I'm crying I spin so fast they can't tell My body moves so flawlessly They don't know inside I'm in hell So keep it going 1, 2, 3, 1 Let the movement keep flowing 2, 3, 4, 2 So they won't know I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

Do you see the shipwreck over there? Do you see the shipwreck over there? Everyone's staring Everyone's staring They won't help But they won't cover their eyes either Maybe someone should see the damage Maybe someone should see the damage But no one's moving But no one's moving Maybe because they can't provide the bandage Maybe because they think it's hopeless There's smiles on some faces There's smiles on some faces The rest of their expressions are blank The rest of their expressions are blank The crowd fills the empty spaces Yet no one moves Now the shipwreck is sinking And not one person is blinking It's going down But it's not making a sound And everyone pretends they didn't see They all pretend the shipwreck isn't me Today's prompt was a paradelle poem.

I'd get away from here I'd go far away I'd never look back In my wildest dreams I'd get a one way ticket Stay away from here Remain unapologetic In my wildest dreams I'd co-exist with myself I'd do whatever I please I'd be my own best friend In my wildest dreams I'd be okay with being alone My heart would hold no fear I wouldn't need any of you In my wildest dreams The world's the limit Maybe even time and space Nothing would stop me In my wildest dreams I'm fearless I'm brave I'm unforgettable  In my wildest dreams    

Stuck in the middle Not sure where to go Life can be fickle  Not sure what to know Because truth is always blurred It's never black and white My words are kind of slurred I'm stuck in the middle tonight Drunk in the middle of a bridge That connects yesterday and tomorrow I missed it by a smidge But I don't want to go back to sorrow So if I'm in between Yesterday and tomorrow Is today unseen?  Some logic I could borrow Because I'm not sure where I stand Or what all of this means It's like my feet are caught in quick sand The distance is equal, or so it seems Yesterday or tomorrow? 

I'm sure I'd never write something I don't mean Or walk with a world I refuse to dream  Because everything I say means something Although some emotions are just a fling Whenever I type a word I risk something that matters But if I say nothing at all that will be sadder  So sorry if I offend you or make you upset But you shouldn't make me mad because you don't know what you'll get I'm a writer, artist, and a poet Don't act surprised, like you didn't know it Because everything to me is fair game No one's above the other...you're all the same

A m I crazy for thinking there's more? B ecause I feel like this can't be all C ould I find it if I knew what to look for? D on't say there's nothing behind this wall E verything contains something deeper F ear would love to prove that theory wrong G oing the other route because it's cheaper H oping what I need won't pass me along I mpossible things happen all the time " J ust believe," they all say K inder things have happened to evil souls L et's not talk about that today M y mind is a wandering battle N ever ending at any point O ver bearing and keeps me rattled P romising my dreams and fears are joint Q uiet moments do me no good R ationalization is my worst enemy S ometimes I don't think as I should T rying to find a permanent remedy U nderstanding is the hardest V olunteering my sanity W ishing on stardust X anax helps my inhumanity  Y elling my loudest won't do me any good

I look in the mirror "Surprise me," you say But I don't know if I can It never worked out this way "Just give it a shot" "Go ahead and try it" Got to learn to take risks Because you never know what you'll get But I'm glad I listened And put myself out there Because sometimes you're right And there's nothing to fear

Ink me good Or bad if you choose I have an untamed heart That will never lose Don't go by guidelines I don't believe in rules I'm an untamed heart I see from a different view Don't want what you want Don't care what you say My heart is untamed It'll always be this way You tell me to grow up But rebellion isn't a phase My heart's not tamed I was born a renegade This is who I am It's in my blood My heart can't be tamed That's how it always was 

Starting next week I'll take a break from the girls in Turn It Off but this week I want to introduce you to a sort of important girl from the book. She appears in the last book of the series as well. Her name is Jenna Hudson and she's a girl Peyton done wrong...I mean just plain old wrong! Later on he grows up and realizes/takes responsibility for his actions regarding Jenna but it doesn't change what he did to her. She's a sweet girl who has great innocence about her. In the book, Peyton stated, " Jenna was always a sweet girl. I didn’t have one bad memory of her. She was always so compassionate and caring which is why she didn’t deserve what I was planning to do but I wanted revenge. Her dad was the officer that arrested me and pinned all of those charges against me when he could have just taken me home and given me a warning. " Here's Jenna! Check out the previous character profile here: http://sellecameron.blogspot.com/2015/10/character-profile-from