Wednesday, April 30, 2014

It's The Little Things! :-)

 "It's the little things and the joy they bring..."


I finished my fourth novel, Turn It Off a couple of days ago (it's the third and final installment in the "Tragic" series) and now I realized I have nothing to do until I decide to start my fifth. I'm trying to wait it out so I can start with a fresh mind and let go of the characters I learned to love so much (and who were very real to me) and that's when I realized how much something so small like completing a project can mean.

My first novel, A Tragic Heart has been receiving great reviews from readers and truthfully, I can't remember the last time I felt so...whole (probably in Australia back in November/December). The recent reviews I received confirmed just how much I want to continue with the writing thing. My entire life I always wanted to be a part of entertainment and the positive feedback I've been receiving from people only makes me want this more. A little thing like a simple review on Amazon or Goodreads meant the world to me. It caused me to think that maybe the little things aren't so little after all.

As I'm preparing to release RED (part 2 of A Tragic Heart), I keep thinking about if people will like it or not. Of course not everyone will give you a positive review but after the reviews from A Tragic Heart, I feel the pressure to push out the same quality for RED.

Little things make a big difference. Three new reviews helped me realize that I have to stay on top of things and showed me how much I don't want to disappoint any of my readers. People are now depending on me for a good story and that's what I want to give them 100% of the time.

Most people see writing a novel as a big deal and freak out when I say I've written four and about to start on my fifth. It never seems like a big deal to me. I always assume it's because I'm so young (only 22), but now that I think about it, it may actually be a big deal. It took a few reviews for me to get that.

I guess the point of this post is to remind everyone that the little things are the things that truly matter in life. Most of us forget that and don't appreciate whatever is around us enough. A good review can change the course of your day and leave you feeling euphoric. Someone telling you you look nice today can leave you feeling confident. It's a small compliment but it does make a difference, doesn't it?

So, as you all go on about your day whether it's bad or good, try to appreciate the little things through it all...listening to the song below may help also!

A Tragic Heart available here

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Where Did The Time Go?

I currently have 'Nsync's "God Must've Spent A Little More Time on You" on repeat and I'm wondering why they don't make music like this anymore? The 90s and early 00s had a bunch of iconic music that no era would ever be able to duplicate and it's a little sad to think about. How did we fall so low as a society that we accept what's on the radio now? What happened to the people who appreciated meaningful Pop music and not just Pop music that caused you to mindlessly bop your head?

I don't know about the rest of you but I was a major 90s/00s Pop freak! I had (and still have) everything 'Nsync, Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera (just to name The Big 4). I remember a time when slow jams and pop ballads were welcomed over the airwaves and everything wasn't EDM and about popping molly.

There's nothing more that I would want than to be able to hear stuff like "From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart" and "What A Girl Wants" while driving and listening to the radio. Remember when everyone was screaming "I Want It That Way" at the top of their lungs? Wasn't it a good feeling?

Anyone who knows me knows that I am a musical encyclopedia. I listen to it all, from 1950s (Chuck Berry, Sam Cooke) to 1980s (Prince, Madonna, Michael) but I absolutely loved the latter 90s. It makes me sad that this later generation missed the good stuff. I cringed at the video from E! Online where children didn't even know what to do with a cassette player (YIKES!).

I remember when Pop music was an event! I miss TRL, Making the video, Say What! Karaoke, etc. Music was fun and exciting and it actually meant something. Where did the time go? Remember when a music video premiere was an exciting thing? Now we just click a link and get directed to an artists' Vevo page. Nothing's the same anymore. It'll be great if they brought an updated version of these shows...maybe then music would become more exciting.
I know I usually don't write about this kind of stuff but it was just weighing heavily on my mind. Listening to 'Nsync took me on a trip down memory lane to the days I knew every Britney dance move and my wall was covered in Pop culture posters. Not even the cartoons are the same's really a shame...

Friday, April 18, 2014

RED (Sequel to A Tragic Heart) Is In the Works! COVER REVEALED!

 "We can't be judged. We can't be told we're not good enough because of our past. After all, we're all red on the inside."-RED (Part II of A Tragic Heart)

So, a few people have been asking me about my next novel and I am happy to say that it will be coming out soon (I am shooting for this Fall!). I may have found an editor for the novel and I recently designed the cover for it (it is subject to change but more than likely it won't). RED, is a continuation of A Tragic Heart, and for those of you who read the latter should already have an idea whose story it is (I don't want to spoil it for the rest of them). While A Tragic Heart was a bit more intense, RED still tackles major issues and deals with the feeling of being "unwanted" or a "mistake". Sometimes it's hard to define who we are when the world sees us as something else and that is what the main character in RED is dealing with. Just like A Tragic Heart, there are many themes to the novel and can be enjoyable for anyone, although it is also a Young Adult novel. RED is a bit more raw and wild than the previous novel, so you have been warned (it isn't too bad though...I think). Hey! We all gotta take chances sometime!

Here is the cover to RED:

To start from the beginning of the story read A Tragic Heart:

Monday, April 14, 2014

Too Far Gone

Here is a poem that I written a while ago (probably in 2010). I know I was only 18 when I wrote it. It's written in permanent marker on my bedroom wall (along with many song lyrics and quotes). It's called "Too Far Gone" and at the time I considered it one of the best pieces I've ever written. It's about how people tend to judge our actions but never ask why we reacted the way we did. I always felt like that was one of the most unfair aspects of life. We all have a story and we all are the way we are for a reason. No one decides to wake up in a bad mood and no one turns out the way they are simply because they felt like it. There's more to everyone and I think that people should always remain mindful of that. Basically, it's for anyone who has ever felt misunderstood (which is everyone).

What do you do when you believe
But your faith isn't strong?
When you do the right thing
But it ends up wrong?
I'm walking around this empty space
Leaving pieces of me all over the place
And it's not good enough
No, it's never good enough!

And no one ever stops to get it
Just how painful it is
To be twisted up on the inside
To have nowhere to hide
And you're wrong when your finger's up in the air
But they're right when they judge the unfair

And no one seems to notice
How tragic you really are
And no one seems to really care...

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Teen Issues!

 I did things a little differently this time around. Instead of posting on my own log, I guest blogged for a fellow author who goes by the name Kelly Martin. In this post I give advice to teens dealing with certain issues while bringing awareness to some serious situations. Click the link below to read more:

Teen Issues

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Who Am I?

"I'm far too loud; it's like, as soon as I've got an opinion it just has to come out. I laugh at stupid things just 'cause they tickle me. Sometimes I wish I was like __________. She got some prittstick and she glued her lips together, so she never had to speak..."

"...But by then it's too late, no one wants to know me." Does anyone else feel like no one around them knows anything about them except for a few shallow things? Isn't it scary once you realize that no one at all really knows who you are? Have you ever felt like you're worth was equivalent to a brick wall?

I don't know about you but I would like to feel like something. I would like everyone around me to know who I really am and what I have to offer. Early this morning I was sitting in my car and thinking about all of the amazing people I know and I felt like I wasn't even on the list. All of my female friends are...different from me. Why couldn't I be more like __________ and let my reserved demeanor do the speaking for me? How come my personality doesn't shine like __________? I should definitely be more talented and caring like _________ and ___________. Why don't I possess these simple yet so out of reach personality traits?

Was it how I was raised or is it in my genes? It can't be how I was raised because I lack the charisma I was taught to have and my mouth is usually quicker than my mind. Plus, everyone else in my family took everything that I lack before I came into the picture. Before I continue, does anyone else have this problem? If not, stop right here and no longer need to read anymore...unless you want to.

Some may say a remedy for this feeling is to list three good traits about yourself. I actually tried doing this and it's a lot harder than I thought it would be. I couldn't even think of one on my own...but nonetheless you should try it anyway...maybe it'll help. Or maybe what would really help is knowing that you are who you are and no matter what you do, you probably can't change that so you should just embrace it.

I'm awkward, shy, quiet, insecure, loud (sometimes), introspective, funny, opinionated yet indifferent to almost everything, confused, and a bunch of other things that I haven't discovered yet. I'm still not sure if I like the description of myself or if it's even accurate but I guess in the end it probably doesn't matter because I am what I am and people would have to accept it (or not!) anyway.

I seem shallow on the outside but I have a lot of depth and inner emotions. Hardly anyone ever gets to see this side of me because I'm covering it up with something else...usually it's insecurity, mystery, or me just being plain obnoxious...depending on who you are. For some reason, today it bothers me that no one ever really got the chance to know me. Maybe my worth isn't equivalent to a brick wall; my worth is hidden behind a brick wall that only a few people had the balls to knock down...or maybe I just think too much.

Sometimes I wish I was more like myself...