The lyrics, "Rain came pouring down/When I was drowning that's when I could finally breathe." I feel like I need to drown so I can learn to breathe again. That's when I start to wonder how many other people actually feel that way too. Life has a way of stealing your dreams, doesn't it?
Suffering rejection after rejection and loss after loss, you start t lose it all and feel lost yourself. It's like a punch in the chest every time I hear Taylor sing, "Hung my head as I lost the war/And the sky turned black like a perfect storm." I just love the way her voice cracks towards the end of her statement. Speaking of getting punched in the chest, the other stand out line in this track is, "The water filled my lungs/I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing." I can't even remember all the times that happened within the past few months.
You know that feeling when it seems like you have no more options left and you're unsure what else to do because everything you've ever learned or know no longer works with your current situation? You would give almost anything for a fresh start and to learn how to do it all again but the only problem is you don't know where to start or how. One thing I definitely agree with Taylor on is when she says, "The drought was the very worst." Yes, it is.
She follows that line with, "...When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst." Again, this is meant to be aimed towards a failed relationship but how many of you feel like you've spent so much time growing flowers, better yet an entire garden only to see it all die of thirst before your eyes? I think I'll be the first one to raise my hand for that one.
The song has a sad and hopeless feel to it yet there's a sound of freedom that comes through strong. It's a song about broken freedom yet being completely whole in your brokenness. Maybe that's what true freedom looks like: a little broken, a little hopeful, and a tad bit hopeless yet everything is perfectly fine. I'm guessing Taylor didn't actually mean that she could finally breathe while she was drowning but she woke up and realized things she never noticed before. Maybe drowning can be a good thing after all.