Split Your Heart, Not Your Tongue

I am proud to announce that my very first poetry book, entitled This Really Happened is officially complete. I will be going through the editing phases shortly and then you can expect a release on Amazon soon after. Some of the poems you have seen previously on my social media pages but I provide an explanation under each poem. I go into detail about what I was feeling and what happened before I decided to write the poem. It's almost like a my personal journal being shared with the world. I'm scared, ashamed and excited all at the same time. It's easily the most personal piece of work I have ever written and that will be released so far. I will keep you all updated and prepare yourselves for giveaways to support the piece. This is hopefully one of a few more poetry books. I already have an idea for a 2nd one in mind. More to come so keep checking back! -S. Elle Cameron

It's dawn I hate going to sleep when it's daylight But we always do It's a sickness we have, Me and you Amongst other things  We can't bear to speak But the morning light is worst of all But somehow it's where we always meet,  Me and you We live through the darkness It's the source of our power The moonlight supplies our solar energy But this sickness is getting the best of me, Me and you We have much more to live for Let's stop closing our eyes towards the sun Because the darkness can't hold us forever We're growing older by the second, Me and you  

I was waiting for something But it never came I'm not sure what But it all feels the same There's this feeling I was supposed to get At least that's what they all say But I'm not sure what Because it all feels the same way I thought I had it for a minute But it was a false alarm One second, it was gone The feeling was disarmed I'm still waiting for something As it all turns out But in reality, I did this to myself'... From the upcoming poetry book/journal by S. Elle Cameron: This Really Happened

Everything great starts with a fall Just like everything big starts with something small We're all just pieces of atoms Stardust combined And out comes this person, destined for something big It's inside of us all, we just have to dig We're all alive because of a cell We all have futures no one can tell Something hidden on the inside Unfathomable things We're nothing but gathered elements Struggling to make the best of our presence

Over or under There's no in between I'm overwhelmed  With my passions and dreams My mind won't stop racing The time moves too fast My body won't stop pacing How long will it last? I'm underwhelmed by life There's not much to it It bores me by the night So I just think and sit Of new ways to make it happen Don't know where I'm going I can hear my brain laughing Not sure what I'm sowing

You may be older and don't run around like you used to But I still love you to the moon and back You may be bad and tear up things that's new But I love you to the moon and back And nothing will ever change that You may not be feeling well these days And we're not sure what exactly is wrong But I'm sure you'll be okay Because you've always been strong I'll love you to the moon and back You may only be 13 pounds but you're so much bigger to me I'll love you to the moon and back I promise I won't ever leave Even when your time is limited, that day will come But none of that will change a thing Because the moon isn't far enough Neither is the sun So I'm rooting for you my Poodle Love I mean it, you're the best dog in the world Because no one comes close Not a boy or any girl You're the only one who can make my heart skip a beat And I'm trying to keep this poem short, nice and...

1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 I'm dancing with tears in my eyes 4, 5, 6 4,5,6 The water is giving me blurry sight 7,8,9 7, 8, 9 They fall onto my face 10, 11, 12 10, 11, 12 Partner, please give me some space 13, 14, 15 13, 14, 15 I don't think the count goes this high 16, 17, 18 16, 17, 18 I'm dancing with tears in my eyes I'm twirling while I'm crying I spin so fast they can't tell My body moves so flawlessly They don't know inside I'm in hell So keep it going 1, 2, 3, 1 Let the movement keep flowing 2, 3, 4, 2 So they won't know I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

Do you see the shipwreck over there? Do you see the shipwreck over there? Everyone's staring Everyone's staring They won't help But they won't cover their eyes either Maybe someone should see the damage Maybe someone should see the damage But no one's moving But no one's moving Maybe because they can't provide the bandage Maybe because they think it's hopeless There's smiles on some faces There's smiles on some faces The rest of their expressions are blank The rest of their expressions are blank The crowd fills the empty spaces Yet no one moves Now the shipwreck is sinking And not one person is blinking It's going down But it's not making a sound And everyone pretends they didn't see They all pretend the shipwreck isn't me Today's prompt was a paradelle poem.

Stuck in the middle Not sure where to go Life can be fickle  Not sure what to know Because truth is always blurred It's never black and white My words are kind of slurred I'm stuck in the middle tonight Drunk in the middle of a bridge That connects yesterday and tomorrow I missed it by a smidge But I don't want to go back to sorrow So if I'm in between Yesterday and tomorrow Is today unseen?  Some logic I could borrow Because I'm not sure where I stand Or what all of this means It's like my feet are caught in quick sand The distance is equal, or so it seems Yesterday or tomorrow? 

A m I crazy for thinking there's more? B ecause I feel like this can't be all C ould I find it if I knew what to look for? D on't say there's nothing behind this wall E verything contains something deeper F ear would love to prove that theory wrong G oing the other route because it's cheaper H oping what I need won't pass me along I mpossible things happen all the time " J ust believe," they all say K inder things have happened to evil souls L et's not talk about that today M y mind is a wandering battle N ever ending at any point O ver bearing and keeps me rattled P romising my dreams and fears are joint Q uiet moments do me no good R ationalization is my worst enemy S ometimes I don't think as I should T rying to find a permanent remedy U nderstanding is the hardest V olunteering my sanity W ishing on stardust X anax helps my inhumanity  Y elling my loudest won't do me any good ...

I look in the mirror "Surprise me," you say But I don't know if I can It never worked out this way "Just give it a shot" "Go ahead and try it" Got to learn to take risks Because you never know what you'll get But I'm glad I listened And put myself out there Because sometimes you're right And there's nothing to fear

Ink me good Or bad if you choose I have an untamed heart That will never lose Don't go by guidelines I don't believe in rules I'm an untamed heart I see from a different view Don't want what you want Don't care what you say My heart is untamed It'll always be this way You tell me to grow up But rebellion isn't a phase My heart's not tamed I was born a renegade This is who I am It's in my blood My heart can't be tamed That's how it always was 

Sparks fly I let them ignite Firestorms were always my favorite Water dries And you can't see the wind And sometimes the earth cracks beneath your feet But fire burns And it spreads throughout the night Destroying anything that gets in it's way It doesn't stop at any cost I always admired that Fire is everywhere In your eyes Your gut Your heart Birthed from nothing but just a tiny spark Now it's a four alarm fire And it can't be stopped There's no running No hiding Just spread your arms and embrace it To the millionth degree... The prompt for today was the elements. 

Black is what I always was So I decided to embrace it Heartache, mystery and sophisticastion They all can sum me up Just a little bit But I know what color I am, it's a perfect fit I'm the color people stay away from They can't read me To them, I'm a loaded gun But I'm not here to talk about weapons Because the words I write are plenty 24 years and they still don't get me They think this means I'm dark on the inside Yet this may be true But there's still a light that shines Because black doesn't mean I'm bad Just that I'm a mystery I think that's what gets them mad My shade is too dark to see through And they're afraid of what they can't see So they try to mold me But I was never one for conformity So color me bad or color me good It doesn't matter, I'll still be misunderstood The prompt was "Color Me Good" and to write about a color that sparks a memory or...

They said to stay away You'll be no good for each other Neither of us listened that day Now we wouldn't choose another  They listed the reasons why Aired out your dirty laundry But I didn't bat an eye That's when they came after me But you kept still and stayed And that made me smile We stopped caring what they say 5 years...I think we lasted a while Much longer than they thought Turns out we fit well They never found the heartache that they sought I guess some things you just can't tell... The prompt for today was the road less traveled. We had to think of a time we didn't listen to popular opinion and ended up thankful we didn't. 

Freedom  Isn't What I need  It's more than a  Necessity, I Crave it Want it Need it all The time until It consumes my mind I need A change Of life or A life of change Things can't stay the same FREEDOM

Screaming and fighting isn't enough to keep me away from you Crying and hard feelings aren't strong enough to stop this feeling Because it's always you I run to, no matter what you do As much as I hate you, there's always a feeling of love I'm concealing Heartbreak and discomfort doesn't stop our world from going round Painful words and blows won't kill our moments Because I hear so much even when you don't make a sound When you're too angry to speak, you're never my opponent Because this is what true love looks like Even during the worst times We fight For us, for who we want to be, for who we are together... The prompt was based off of a line from Taylor's Swift's song "You Are In Love". It's actually my favorite part of the song and I would always play it over and over which is why I found it funny to be the prompt for day 5.  "You understand now why they lost their minds and fo...

I was there and so were you We had it all and no one had to approve I owned my life and you owned yours It was magical and we were our own cure Everything was where it belonged I was happy and you came along Not a thing was out of place We owned it all, our time and space But things are rarely what they seem It was time to wake up, it was all a dream I long for a world where that feeling can be real But that dream hit me hard, I need time to heal There needs to be a world with simple joy and magic There's something in my gut telling me I have to have it Because if I don't it can be the death of me Because if I don't, all I'll ever have is a dream

I'm sitting here waiting Just waiting for something to happen I showed up, I fought my way here Did the opportunity disappear? Did I blink and miss it? I thought this was it, the perfect fit "Showing up is half the battle" That's what they always say Show up and get on the saddle Ride it for what it's worth But it ain't much here It's not much there... I thought waiting may not be enough But they say waiting makes you tough It gives you thicker skin But I learned it's not about the outside but what's within And even sometimes that ain't enough Because we have no say over this kind of stuff Where we'll end up Who we are We can try to change it but there's no guarantee No matter what happens there's always a fee So go ahead, we can dream and dream But some dreams will always be incomplete  

It was dark outside Not a light in sight I just wanted you to hit me with all your might Do something, say something Don't be a mannequin It was either sink or swim I egged you on I instigated as the night faded I just needed you to hit me, make me jaded I'm laughing at you I'm twisting your arm Just hit me, do me some harm You finally did it I acted like it didn't hurt, wiped the blood with my shirt But this is foreplay for me because I always like to flirt Before I get into it Before I enjoy it I just need you to hit me... The inspiration came from watching a scene from one of my favorite movies, Fight Club (it's a tie between that and The Dark Knight for the #1 slot). I watched it on mute and came up with this.