Split Your Heart, Not Your Tongue

I was there and so were you We had it all and no one had to approve I owned my life and you owned yours It was magical and we were our own cure Everything was where it belonged I was happy and you came along Not a thing was out of place We owned it all, our time and space But things are rarely what they seem It was time to wake up, it was all a dream I long for a world where that feeling can be real But that dream hit me hard, I need time to heal There needs to be a world with simple joy and magic There's something in my gut telling me I have to have it Because if I don't it can be the death of me Because if I don't, all I'll ever have is a dream

I'm sitting here waiting Just waiting for something to happen I showed up, I fought my way here Did the opportunity disappear? Did I blink and miss it? I thought this was it, the perfect fit "Showing up is half the battle" That's what they always say Show up and get on the saddle Ride it for what it's worth But it ain't much here It's not much there... I thought waiting may not be enough But they say waiting makes you tough It gives you thicker skin But I learned it's not about the outside but what's within And even sometimes that ain't enough Because we have no say over this kind of stuff Where we'll end up Who we are We can try to change it but there's no guarantee No matter what happens there's always a fee So go ahead, we can dream and dream But some dreams will always be incomplete  

Closing my eyes is my favorite thing to do It's not that I'm lazy but I get to dream about you If only I could still hold you near This pain in my heart would disappear You're only present in my wildest dreams We're alive in a world where nothing is what it seems I never knew that sleep could be so satisfying The peace, the freedom is almost like I'm dying But it happens in the best way that could exist Because I get to see the one that I miss Every night I get to smile I get the chance to talk to you for a while In reality, you're not even here with me But that doesn't matter in my dreams That's why being asleep is better than being awake Touching things only my beta waves can create I don't care if I only love a fantasy I don't care if it contributes to my abnormality  Because I'm happy that you're right in front of me Even if I'm the only one who can see I'm okay with living in a l...

"You are what you love, not who loves you!" Fall Out Boy (Save Rock & Roll) First off: the MonumenTour was the best concert I had the chance to go to since Paramore headlined the Honda Civic Tour in 2010! Not only did I get to rock out in the pit, only a couple of feet from the stage with my two favorite bands but I received words of inspiration. You know when you go somewhere and the person speaking seems like they took some insight from your life before forming their speech. That was the entire night for me this past Saturday.  A major theme of the night was don't give up and any dream is possible no matter how stupid it may sound. The lead singer from New Politics stated, " this all started with a stupid dream but I am here today to tell you that sometimes stupidity is all you need !" WOW! That was the start of the night. Paramore and Fall Out Boy continued with their encouragement. After suffering from countless rejections from literary agen...

"Thank you, have a good day!" That's the line I have to say over and over again, countless times a day. It's a line I feared since I was small because I've always believed that I would have more. I always believed that I would do better. Now I'm not knocking what anyone else does for a living but I am saying that for me, personally, it's not where I long to be. I graduated from college a year ago with honors and I thought I would be somewhere by now. Does this sound familiar to anyone? Just the other day while I was in deep thought (this is how I spend 90% of my day), I hear my mind scream to myself, " I have all these dreams and I have no idea what to do with them! " Then, that's when I wondered how many other people must feel the same. While at work the other day, I took a look at everyone around me and wondered what their dreams once was and if they're actually living it. I began to feel sad for humanity thinking about how most ...

 " ...Every step feels so brand new. It's hard to jump with no net but I've jumped and got no regret." During the past two weeks I learned what living is and let me tell you...it's exactly what everyone hyped it up to be! Remember when I wrote about how important it is to dream and that daydreaming leads to living...I took my own advice and made my dreams into a reality. I spent my last few weeks in Australia (my dream place), Dubai, and Italy. It was as if one day I was wishing and hoping to see Australia at least once in my lifetime and the next, I was petting Koalas and Kangaroos at Steve Irwin's zoo in Brisbane! I went sightseeing in Newcastle and skydiving in Picton, Australia. Most of my time was spent in Sydney where I met new people and got a new tattoo.  It's not exactly what I did in Australia that made it memorable or that made it all worth it, it's what I learned. I learned about adventure and risk taking, but those weren't the mo...

"I wanna get out and build my own home on a street where reality is not much different from dreams I've had. A dream is all I have..."   They always tell us not to sleep for too long; it's the ones that's wide awake that will take the winning. Always keep your eyes wide open because that way you won't miss a thing. I say, close your eyes and keep them shut tight. Who needs to see when you can dream?   Being wide awake doesn't allow you to think of anything new. Staying awake only allows you to see what's in front of you, but dreaming gets you everywhere. Dreaming gives you the greatest ideas and the adrenaline to keep you going. Dreaming is sometimes all we have and if we never close our eyes, we would never know what lies inside of our minds.    Just because you need to open your eyes sometimes doesn't mean you always have to be wide awake. It's okay to be alert but you have to allow yourself room to daydream and see visions throu...

It's Here and Now... It's official! My first novel, "A Tragic Heart" is here and now anyone in almost any part of the world can pick up a copy. I know it's been a while but I've been busy not only with the release of my first novel but also other business excursions.  I've decided to stop sleeping on myself and do something about my dreams and goals. I never meant for this to sound sappy or mushy but I simply got tired of feeling "average". There are just times when you have to tell yourself " the time is here and now ."  Waiting can turn into " never " and " never " turns into " regret ". I never want to feel the regret of not trying. I think as humans we always try to wait for the best times to start pursuing something but waiting can be deadly. Maybe there is no "right" time because there isn't enough time.  Theoretically we only have about nine years of our lives to do what we wan...

"There's a battle within that I'll never win, because it's me that I'm up against, it's my heart versus common sense." Anyone who knows me knows that I get all of my inspiration from music and the artists who makes it. I like to think that I'm pretty well rounded in my choices and what I listen to, though I will admit that I lean more towards anything that has deep lyrical meaning. You may be wondering what this has to do with anything but since this is my first official blog post I just thought it would be a great idea to begin with something personal...and it doesn't get anymore personal than knowing about my longtime obsession with music. As many of you know, I'm preparing to release my first novel entitled "A Tragic Heart". I couldn't be anymore excited and nervous...mostly the latter. From time to time you guys may witness me starting a blog post with a quote (more than likely taken from a song) simply because I  don...