Split Your Heart, Not Your Tongue

I'm a rebel at heart I'm a timid soul I love a good crowd I love to be alone Two lies and a truth More like 3 truths and a lie Which one is it? Go ahead, take your time.

Stuck in the middle Not sure where to go Life can be fickle  Not sure what to know Because truth is always blurred It's never black and white My words are kind of slurred I'm stuck in the middle tonight Drunk in the middle of a bridge That connects yesterday and tomorrow I missed it by a smidge But I don't want to go back to sorrow So if I'm in between Yesterday and tomorrow Is today unseen?  Some logic I could borrow Because I'm not sure where I stand Or what all of this means It's like my feet are caught in quick sand The distance is equal, or so it seems Yesterday or tomorrow? 

A m I crazy for thinking there's more? B ecause I feel like this can't be all C ould I find it if I knew what to look for? D on't say there's nothing behind this wall E verything contains something deeper F ear would love to prove that theory wrong G oing the other route because it's cheaper H oping what I need won't pass me along I mpossible things happen all the time " J ust believe," they all say K inder things have happened to evil souls L et's not talk about that today M y mind is a wandering battle N ever ending at any point O ver bearing and keeps me rattled P romising my dreams and fears are joint Q uiet moments do me no good R ationalization is my worst enemy S ometimes I don't think as I should T rying to find a permanent remedy U nderstanding is the hardest V olunteering my sanity W ishing on stardust X anax helps my inhumanity  Y elling my loudest won't do me any good ...

Ink me good Or bad if you choose I have an untamed heart That will never lose Don't go by guidelines I don't believe in rules I'm an untamed heart I see from a different view Don't want what you want Don't care what you say My heart is untamed It'll always be this way You tell me to grow up But rebellion isn't a phase My heart's not tamed I was born a renegade This is who I am It's in my blood My heart can't be tamed That's how it always was 

Sparks fly I let them ignite Firestorms were always my favorite Water dries And you can't see the wind And sometimes the earth cracks beneath your feet But fire burns And it spreads throughout the night Destroying anything that gets in it's way It doesn't stop at any cost I always admired that Fire is everywhere In your eyes Your gut Your heart Birthed from nothing but just a tiny spark Now it's a four alarm fire And it can't be stopped There's no running No hiding Just spread your arms and embrace it To the millionth degree... The prompt for today was the elements. 

Black is what I always was So I decided to embrace it Heartache, mystery and sophisticastion They all can sum me up Just a little bit But I know what color I am, it's a perfect fit I'm the color people stay away from They can't read me To them, I'm a loaded gun But I'm not here to talk about weapons Because the words I write are plenty 24 years and they still don't get me They think this means I'm dark on the inside Yet this may be true But there's still a light that shines Because black doesn't mean I'm bad Just that I'm a mystery I think that's what gets them mad My shade is too dark to see through And they're afraid of what they can't see So they try to mold me But I was never one for conformity So color me bad or color me good It doesn't matter, I'll still be misunderstood The prompt was "Color Me Good" and to write about a color that sparks a memory or...

They said to stay away You'll be no good for each other Neither of us listened that day Now we wouldn't choose another  They listed the reasons why Aired out your dirty laundry But I didn't bat an eye That's when they came after me But you kept still and stayed And that made me smile We stopped caring what they say 5 years...I think we lasted a while Much longer than they thought Turns out we fit well They never found the heartache that they sought I guess some things you just can't tell... The prompt for today was the road less traveled. We had to think of a time we didn't listen to popular opinion and ended up thankful we didn't. 

Freedom  Isn't What I need  It's more than a  Necessity, I Crave it Want it Need it all The time until It consumes my mind I need A change Of life or A life of change Things can't stay the same FREEDOM

Screaming and fighting isn't enough to keep me away from you Crying and hard feelings aren't strong enough to stop this feeling Because it's always you I run to, no matter what you do As much as I hate you, there's always a feeling of love I'm concealing Heartbreak and discomfort doesn't stop our world from going round Painful words and blows won't kill our moments Because I hear so much even when you don't make a sound When you're too angry to speak, you're never my opponent Because this is what true love looks like Even during the worst times We fight For us, for who we want to be, for who we are together... The prompt was based off of a line from Taylor's Swift's song "You Are In Love". It's actually my favorite part of the song and I would always play it over and over which is why I found it funny to be the prompt for day 5.  "You understand now why they lost their minds and fo...

I was there and so were you We had it all and no one had to approve I owned my life and you owned yours It was magical and we were our own cure Everything was where it belonged I was happy and you came along Not a thing was out of place We owned it all, our time and space But things are rarely what they seem It was time to wake up, it was all a dream I long for a world where that feeling can be real But that dream hit me hard, I need time to heal There needs to be a world with simple joy and magic There's something in my gut telling me I have to have it Because if I don't it can be the death of me Because if I don't, all I'll ever have is a dream

I'm sitting here waiting Just waiting for something to happen I showed up, I fought my way here Did the opportunity disappear? Did I blink and miss it? I thought this was it, the perfect fit "Showing up is half the battle" That's what they always say Show up and get on the saddle Ride it for what it's worth But it ain't much here It's not much there... I thought waiting may not be enough But they say waiting makes you tough It gives you thicker skin But I learned it's not about the outside but what's within And even sometimes that ain't enough Because we have no say over this kind of stuff Where we'll end up Who we are We can try to change it but there's no guarantee No matter what happens there's always a fee So go ahead, we can dream and dream But some dreams will always be incomplete  

The sky is dark But the night is light There's something in the clouds tonight Can't tell what it is Or what I want out of life But there's something in the clouds tonight That makes me think I can be more It makes me dream 'til my mind is sore But I can't see past my initial sight Still, there's something in the clouds tonight The wind is getting icy And the air is colder, dear Sometimes I wish my ambitions would disappear For some reason, this evening I want them to stay Maybe I can keep them into the next day I hope it's not gone before the morning light Because I like whatever it is in the clouds tonight

It was the day before and only if I'd known That it was the day before my disaster How funny it is when everything seems normal Then all of a sudden your whole life changes We're never really prepared for the day that alters us That way, we can't hold our breath Or stand our ground But it was the day before And God! It it took me down! There was fire and brimstone And coal and smoke I tried to hold my nose but it wasn't enough This day was written in my destiny  To make me who I am And I wouldn't take it back Because I would forfeit it all It was the day before And I wasn't ready for that fall! But goodness gracious I'm glad that I tumbled Because here I am to tell about it And I can say it all was worth it I needed to fall I needed to stumble  Disaster saved my life And I am still here because of that moment Thanks to the day before For being my worst component    

I'm definitely unsure You're positively immature And I don't see how this is going to mix Plus, there's not much we can fix You're a red light and I'm passing go I'm a free flight and you're...I don't know But somehow this love is real When it probably should be sealed We're dysfunctional  Yet untouchable But we wouldn't give it up for the world I'll choose you as my guy...me your girl But this can't be good for our health But what do I do when you're worth my wealth? Maybe that means I don't have much But I still love the feel of your touch This love sometimes may suck But this love is us    

I got drunk off failure Hungover by life But after coming face to face with porcelain My stomach's clear And I'm hungry for more Life has handed me dirty cards But I wiped them clean to start over My gut is growling for triumph My heart is beating for success It's time for me to get out of this mess I'm hungry for victory I'm hungry for happiness I'm hungry for life  

Closing my eyes is my favorite thing to do It's not that I'm lazy but I get to dream about you If only I could still hold you near This pain in my heart would disappear You're only present in my wildest dreams We're alive in a world where nothing is what it seems I never knew that sleep could be so satisfying The peace, the freedom is almost like I'm dying But it happens in the best way that could exist Because I get to see the one that I miss Every night I get to smile I get the chance to talk to you for a while In reality, you're not even here with me But that doesn't matter in my dreams That's why being asleep is better than being awake Touching things only my beta waves can create I don't care if I only love a fantasy I don't care if it contributes to my abnormality  Because I'm happy that you're right in front of me Even if I'm the only one who can see I'm okay with living in a l...

I stare at the long dark hallway Hoping a light will show up I swallow hard Clench my fists And feel the sweat form on my face One step after another I slowly go For a second I close my eyes tightly  Hoping this is the right choice I try to be mindful of my surroundings  But there's nothing to see I'm all alone With goosebumps on my skin I'm more than halfway there But I want to turn around What's waiting for me? I see a light just at the end I stop before I step into the brightness What if it's not there? Take a deep breath...exhale I walk into the light A smile spreads across my face Love was waiting for me all along

Wipe it clean Put the needle to my skin Ink it exactly how I want it It started with one Then two and three Before I knew it I hit number four Now I'm contemplating what's next What do I want for number five Let's make this fun Make it something memorable New Ink for a different place Travel the world and make it permanent  Every memory sticks to my skin forever They all tell a story They all have a meaning Favorite band, biggest dreams, aspirations It keeps me grounded Keeps my head straight Ink is my guilty pleasure 

What's next? Where do I go from here? Now that it's over Where should I appear? I feel like I have no place All this time and not enough space That part of my journey is over I passed the test But what do I do with all the rest? Life doesn't give you instructons No manual or handbook But I need to know where I should look Because now I feel lost In the middle of nowhere I'm not even sure if I should even care I took the risks Came out on top So why am I here at the bottom of the rock? So many familiar faces Lets me know that I don't belong here I did what I was supposed to do So why am I not up there? It wasn't enough and no one ever told me And now I'm stuck, not where I should be Cemented into failure Like it's my new name Hard work is optional It's all about the game Who knows who Who came from where I guess that's the reason why I'm not up there Years of doing the very right t...

Push play Ready, set, go I'm not really ready But how else will I know?  My mind is set Got to keep the race steady Have to take what I can get Because no one will let me Fast foward To show me that this is worth it all Give me something to hold on to When I stumble and fall Because there are no rewinds No places for do overs Even if I'm not ready, this is my time